Prayer Jounal entry exactly a year ago: September 9th 2010

" "Everything I do, I do it for You"

God,
I have a very different relationship with You than most people. I feel so romanced, and held in Your presence. You are not just my Savior, You are my Savior because You are my husband. You always have been. I want Your character, everything about You to beam from every part of my life every single day I want every thought to walk hand in hand with Your thoughts.
I want You God! All of You, all Your love, beauty & grace. And I want it all to be seen in me. I want Your joy to be my joy, Your pain to be my pain and Your love to be my love.
God I am Yours...secure and sealed! I have come, ready for my duties. As a Princess of the King. To take up my armor every day. And wash my life in the Blood all day.
What can I do for You God? How can I bring You glory today, Jesus?

You are my blessing :)
You are my happiness :D

<3 always
Your Princess
only Yours! "

God has been there with me all through this year (well, He always is!) He has taught me so much about myself and about Himself this year. I have faced many trials but even as I sit here, not having the best day...I KNOW with all my heart that He is here with me! He is never going to leave me, even when my eyes are blurred and I can't see Him fully...it is just my vision that is off, He is still there!

So today I would like to challenge all of You to remember:

• Who your God is
• How big He is
• How much He loves you
• how small your problems are in comparison
• that He will NEVER leave or forsake you
• you need not worry (even about money, food, shelter)
• do not fear
• He is not only your Savior and King, but your TRUE LOVE (no one will ever love you more)

May He be the focus of all His children's hearts today...

Moving...or waiting?

First Kiss Girl here, and I'd like to share a regular life lesson everyone faces at least once, if not multiple times! Waiting on the Lord.

Things change in our lives, often it seems when we just get used to the consistency. This isn't due to God's humor, but its His Will; which we will never know fully. It is a part of life for doors to close and others to open-or maybe just a window. But before the next door opens, what do we do? Do we wait around, (as Paul would say...) by no means! We WATCH and wait, we seek and wait, we seek possibilities and wait.

This is SO easy to say, but with every different experience, that isn't all there is. With each unique waiting experience, its more complicated.

I'm still praying about where God wants me this Fall. My passion for youth and purity is strong again, but I'm also struggling with fear. I tend to not jump on big things because of my fear of failure, and not being good enough. This fear, I know, is the enemy trying to stop me! I'm also praying about overcoming this.
I have found things to do, such as: I assist at another youth group, I'm catching up on some reading, and I'm helping my Mom. But thinking about the things I need money for, hangs over my head almost everyday.

When I think about how I could make money, the only things I want to do are things that will help equip me for my husband and home. My dream job would be to work at a church under leadership I trust. But that isn't logical right now.
A part of me feels that this road block is because of my sin of laziness and fear and that until I change I might never get a clear answer...weather this is true that God would wait until I change or not...this makes me a little stressed.

Then I think about just doing SOMETHING no matter how big or small that would bring God glory. Sounds great! But where?
(this is an example of the thoughts I have...you are currently in Mandy's mind!)

So find just a job...or wait for God to make it clear?

I want nothing more than to be in youth ministry more, but (yes, another "but" lol) that doesn't pay for gas or outings.

There is so much ruining through my mind ALL DAY about what I should be doing and if I'm being the best I can. Then verses like Psalm 46:10 come to my mind

"Be still, and know that I am God"

And, Jeremiah 32:27

"I am the Lord, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?"

And, Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you' declares the Lord 'plans to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"

God is able!
He can put me where He wants me even with my fear.
He HAS already blessed me that I live with my parents and my Dad is able to still take care of me financially.
I have already learned so much, and I have more to learn.
I will TRUST...but
I will also OBEY...(Matthew 6:25, 34)

My prayer is to be a PROVERBS 31 woman. And truly have DILIGENT HANDS (Proverbs 10:4).

Please intercede for me if God calls you too. Thank you!

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It's Amanda's Birthday

Amazing, 22 years ago, I gave birth to this dark haired, BIG eyed little girl. I was induced. Swore I would never do that again. Horrible labor, tough delivery, but the Creator of all, saw me through. I remember praying as I was laboring. But as with most deliveries, we recover. We see that sweet little child in our arms and all we can do is love them with everything in our being. Children are a blessing, from the Lord! They are not trophies, dolls, products of our own selfish desires. They are created by the creator of all and He forms them. In the garden of Eden, the children would have been perfect, there would have been no labor. But, as Eve and Adam, went against God's only rule. It was just one rule. You can have everything around you except this one thing. Sin, sin has caused labor, miscarriages, deformed children, etc. Our bodies are not perfect, so they cannot produce perfect children. But, by God's wonderful grace and the redemption through HIS SON, we are able to handle the imperfections.

My daughter has become a women after God's own heart. What more could I want for Her?

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. " Matthew 6:33 Happy Birthday my Amanda Rose.

Shalom