One day I prayed for God to show me what He wanted me to do. This was shortly after I graduated High School and I knew I wanted to be used, but I also knew my life was going to look different than the life of my friends. So I left it up to God to lead the way. I prayed that even if I didn't hear Him leading me, that He would use my parents to show me the way. My parents have always been diligent in prayer and seeking the Lord through all circumstances...so I knew He would speak to them as well.
I was sitting at the kitchen table just finishing up dinner with my family. My Dad says he's been thinking...oh boy. He proceeds to tell me he wants me to go to Community College. This was the end of July, so I'd have to get moving to get in that semester. With a "are you serious" face I said "are you serious??" He proceeds to tell me he thinks it would be good for me. Of course, I thought I knew better! I didn't want to go to college. They don't have a college that specializes in being a wife and mother. There is no degree I could get that would pay for itself in the end. I stomped up to my room and prayed in tears. "I can't believe he would say that! Doesn't he know my life isn't going to be like others?" as I brought my face up God told me to look at my prayer journal. Sure enough, I prayed about this. Yup. I'm fighting the very thing I prayed for. God had spoken to my Dad, and I didn't want to hear it. As I gathered myself I decided to follow my Dad's leading (which was actually God's). Going there taught me a lot. Not with the classes I took, but I met people different from me. Christians who weren't as convicted, or life changed as me. It was interesting. I got called "outrageous", "teachers pet", "overachiever" just for doing my best and being myself. I realized through that experience that I was indeed an outcast. I realized that God had a big plan for my life and ministry. I realized that I might have to stand alone in the fight. And I realized that not all Christians are looking to follow God at any cost.
God taught me a lot through that experience. And the people I met caused a chain reaction for meeting new people that changed my life. Some on a good note, others, not so much. If I had never gone there, things would be different now.
Another time God answered my prayers was not too long ago. I was asking God where my next step was. I felt done at the church I was at. I couldn't minister anymore there and I knew God had a bigger plan for me. I started attending the church I'm at now. I knew I wouldn't be going to there just to be ministered to, but also to serve. And every week He brings a new thing for me to do. And I'm happy and growing! :)
I still have prayers that God said "wait" on...but because of His track record of amazing things...I know He has my good in mind :)
So if you are waiting on the Lord...don't give up! He hears you. And if you keep seeking Him and what His will is...He will answer you and it will be good for you. :) just remember sometimes we have to get rid of our wants in order to see His will.
Romans 8: 18-30
"18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. 19 For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. 20 For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope 21 that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God.
22 We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. 23 Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the first fruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. 24 For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? 25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.
26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. 27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified."
Always keep this in mind too...
2 Peter 3:9
"9 The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance."
Love always,
Mandy Scordino
The First Kiss Girl
