Sometimes God doesn't answer things when we think He should. That only proves that His thoughts are higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9).
I have the full capacity to achieve pretty much anything I want. Such as, a guy. LOL.
Yeah we can laugh about it, but this fact really scares me.
That I can possibly walk off God's path for me and create my own.
How did I deserve that right?
Why would it come so easy to me?
God certainly doesn't deserve it from me.
With all that He's done for me, His path should be guided by a barbed wire fence!! But that's just it, His thoughts are higher than mine. I would want to control someone I gave everything to, but God only adds more freedom.
So yeah, I can choose who to marry, I can also have sex tomorrow if I wanted. I am after all a woman, we are crafty. LOL.
Would my choice be the right one? If I chose a man, would we never fight? Who's to say?
I can't see that far into the future. I can't even see the next minute.
What scares me even more than being able to walk off God's path for me, is to be off God's path.
He sees everything. Nothing is hidden from Him (Hebrews 4:13). He created everything I see, everything I touch, every emotion I feel, every breath, every pore, every hair, every tear.
He knows my future (Jeremiah 29:11).
I don't.
To walk away from that, to be alone, nearsighted, blind, with no one to guide me, left to my own self...I know what I'm capable of, I know how quickly I can mess things up, I know the pain I can inflict on myself. Who knows what kind of state I'd be in after just one night left all to myself, my flesh, my desires, my temptations...left to fight them all alone.
I'd be tired, weak, scared, helpless.
Who would want me then?
I can feel a hole in my stomach arising just thinking about it.
But lo and behold...He let's me choose.
The way of God is uncertain in my own eyes. I'd have to follow His steps and stay under His wing while others choose what their whims desire. I'd have to listen to God because He knows the way and I don't.
Then there could be my path...I'd get to choose what to do and where to go. I wouldn't have to follow anyone.
But then, what if there's a sharp curve? There wouldn't be any signs or warnings, I could crash. And what if storms come? Could I build a shelter quick enough? What if the man I choose leaves? Then what?
Would it be so bad to just walk with God and resist temptations? After all, He will always be there to help and guide me.
Is the "me path" really worth the risk if I end up worse than I am now?
Is the "freedom to choose" an invitation to go my own way or is the real freedom in staying on God's path?
Is this life about "me", or where I'm going? God has already told me where His path leads, and I want to go there. So is it really that important to "be my own person" or to "make a name for myself"?
What about after this life? What if I can't choose anymore? What if I'm done for?! What if God's path is the only way to the place I want to go?
How can I be sure I get there?
WAIT, I already answered it!
God's path.
He sees ahead, He will protect me, He'll be my shelter, He'll plan my future, He will guide me to that place. I don't have to be certain. I'm certain He knows! I'm certain He's the only way! I'm certain He knows what is good for me! And I'm certain He knows my heart.
Because He created it.
You may think that God doesn't care about you. You may wonder why you are going through the things you are. Chances are, you may have wonder off His path and made a decision He didn't want you to. But even if that's the case, God is always ready for you to come back. If you trust Him, that He knows what is good for you, then He will bring good to you (Romans 8:28). It may not come the way you think it should, but you have to trust Him. Stay on His path. Let Him worry about the curves and bumps, and you just worry about following Him. He knows the way. You don't have to be unsure anymore. BE SURE who you are following. He won't disappoint you. Because even when storms come, they well bless you, because NOTHING can separate you from God (Romans 8:38-39). If you are tired of fighting and getting no where...maybe you are fighting on the wrong battle field. Maybe it is time to Armor up (Ephesians 6:14-17) and join the fight against the enemy and not against flesh and blood (Ephesians 6:12).
God created you, He has plans for you and they are good. You have to trust that. But the only way for you to experience His good plans, is for you to choose His path.
Will you?
Amanda I think you really nailed it in this post. A long time ago, during the first Great Awakening in our country, Jonathan Edwards woke people up by telling them that each and every day we walk on a slippery slope. It is only by the grace of God that we are kept alive, Christians and non-Christian alike. But when we choose to follow God we have the assurance that he knows every twist and turn and even when we don't see the slippery slope, he is able to keep our feet sure. He will command his angels regarding us and will protect us. We only have to trust him. To trust that he loves us passionately and he has good plans for us. Keep up the good messages:)
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